Uncertainty. If there is one thing I am sure of as a twentysomething, it’s feeling uncertain. I feel like I’m constantly saying and thinking, “I don’t know.”
Now, there’s nothing wrong with that. Your mid-twenties are meant to figure things out so eventually you can be more certain. However, it is nice to feel a little more in control.
In an effort to feel more in control and be more honest with myself I am going to share three things with you that people may not know about me. I feel like if I am more honest with myself and others I am taking a small step toward knowing more answers.
1. I have way more anxiety than I let on
I think my anxiety has increased somewhat since I graduated college, but even so I am way more anxious than I like to let people think. My boyfriend know this, bless him, but not a lot of other people do. I am anxious to the point where if I send a text message and don’t receive an answer I am sure the person I sent it to is mad at me. Facebook messenger is the worst. If I don’t hear from a friend for awhile I automatically assume they don’t like me anymore. And that’s just the start of my anxiety. I know, I’m ridiculous. I’m working on it.
2. I wish I knew more about makeup
I rarely wear makeup. I would much rather sleep in longer than apply makeup. I also cannot justify wearing it, just to sweat it off later in the day. However, I still wish I knew how to apply it. Even if I only wore it to special occasions it would still be awesome to know how. I still cannot figure out eyeliner.
3. I secretly love ramen noodles
Yes, you read that right. I never stopped eating ramen noodles when I graduated college like most people. I think they are delicious. I eat them all the time. I get it. You probably think it’s gross, but I promise not to make you eat them.
There you have it. Three things you probably didn’t know about me. I feel better getting them off my chest. Next step, life decisions.
I have lived near Wisconsin Dells for over a year now. However, it wasn’t until this past week that I put much effort into taking advantage of my surroundings. I was so caught up in what was happening the next weekend or when I was going to visit here or there that I forgot to enjoy what was at my fingertips.
I have never been to the circus and I wait until I have lived in Baraboo for 14 months before I go? What was I thinking?! As over a dozen horses raced around the stage performing tricks I felt a small void from my childhood fill. I was seven years old again and all my dreams were coming true.
The Tommy Bartlet Waterski Show brought back some serious nostalgia of when I used to attend local waterski shows as a kid. But this time there were tougher tricks preformed and new feats entirely, like jet ski and jetpack performances.
The Dells Lumberjack Show was amazing. Not many people know this, but I tried log rolling for a night in college. I could stay standing for maybe a second and a half. The talent the men in this show possess is truly fantastic. Two thumbs up for sure!
Now I waited until the end of the summer season when all three shows were bearing the end of their season before I finally put my foot down took a moment to enjoy these shows. It should not have taken a looming deadline for me to enjoy events in my area.
Do the silly things. Attend the annual events. Thrift a little. Make sure you aren’t too busy looking ahead that you miss what is happening now. I mean, I rode an elephant for goodness sakes! Live in the moment. Enjoy it to the fullest.
It’s really easy to set goals and timelines for yourself. It’s the follow through that gets tough. Lately, I have been realizing how unrealistic timelines can be and not meeting those ridiculous timelines can result in unnecessary unhappiness.
It’s easy to say you’ll be married and settled into your first home by the time you are 25 or you’ll graduate college in four years when you are a naive 16 year old.
Even when you have had a taste of the real world, it is still easy to fall into the timeline trap. Has anyone ever told you that in order for them to have kids “on time” they need to meet “the one” tomorrow because they need to be dating for this many years and married that many years before they have kids? That’s a lot of pressure to put on yourself.
Now, before I go on I am going to stop myself so I don’t start overexplaining. Here’s the message I want to get out: Let yourself breathe. Do not commit yourself to a crazy timeline. Time passes faster than you think and life gets in the way more than you would like it to. Very few people follow the cookie cutter version of life that seems so attainable when you are young. So live life, don’t plan it!